“All right, Andy, if you’re really not
going to let me have any cupcakes, then I’m gonna get going,” Tragan told her
with a grin. “Later.”
“Okay--oh, wait--real quick.
Could you hand me that lid over there?” Andy said, pointing to the cake cover
resting on the opposite counter.
“Sure.”
When Tragan lifted it up, he
froze--then turned his head toward her, his dark eyes narrowing. “What’s
this?”
“Hmm…let’s see…” Playfully, Andy
held back a smile as she ambled closer. “A jumbo-sized
cupcake--set apart from the others--with a T scrawled in blue icing…”
“For me?” Tragan said, breaking into a
full smile.
“Of course! I’d never forget
about you,” she said with a little laugh.
“Yes!” he said, messily pulling the
cake right out of the ramekin cup and assailing it with his mouth.
“Awesome!” he mumbled, totally un-self-conscious about the frosting on his
lips.
“You’re such a guy,” Andy said, shaking
her head, and then without thinking, reached up to wipe the underside of his
lip with her thumb.
The second she made contact, she
realized what she’d done. Her hand was on his face. More than that,
she was touching his mouth. Something so intimate--too intimate for
friends--and yet, her fingers lingered. She couldn’t seem to stop
touching him, grazing her thumb over his lower lip, as if there was still
frosting there. As if she didn’t have an impulsive desire to slide her
thumb inside his mouth and to feel his hot tongue on her flesh. Her
breath became shallow as her eyes traveled up--and she found Tragan watching
her. His gaze was intense, fully aware of her--and then she
panicked.
Self-consciously, she swallowed and
pulled back.
Trying to act natural, Andy snatched a
dishtowel off the counter and handed him that instead. “Here, you can do
it,” she said awkwardly, as hot embarrassment flooded her cheeks. If
people saw this now, would they really be surprised that Brad was her only
boyfriend ever? As much as she wanted Tragan, she was inexperienced
enough to fear rejection and nowhere near confident enough to be a seductress.
Wordlessly, Tragan took the towel and
wiped his mouth.
“Better?” When she nodded, he
tossed the towel and said, “Actually, it’s just as well I get cleaned up.
I’m supposed to meet some girl later.”
At that, Andy’s mouth fell open.
“W-what girl?” she asked, feeling her brow crease with concern.
“Pellican’s sister’s friend is supposed
to be there today, helping out,” he told her.
“Oh.” Andy swallowed down a hard
lump. Suddenly she started to feel queasy, and it had nothing to do with
the drug trial. This was 100% anxious jealousy, churning in her
stomach. Why hadn’t she considered that Tragan could be interested in
other girls, too?
“And you, um, like her?” she asked,
attempting to sound pleasant and unaffected--as if she were simply taking a
friendly interest in the topic, as his roommate.
He gave a one-shouldered shrug, while
his face remained noncommittal. “Never met her. But Pellican thinks
we’ll hit it off.”
The painful ball of jealousy in Andy’s
belly swelled, then ballooned to her chest, making it hard to breathe
normally. Still, she forced a smile that felt brittle, but it was the
best she could do. Then nodded maybe a bit too vigorously. “That’s
great, Tragan. I really hope it works out,” she lied.
“You do?” he asked, never taking
his eyes off her face, as though studying her reaction.
“Sure. If it’s what you
want.” She quickly turned away from him and walked back to the counter
where she’d been frosting cupcakes and tried to think of what she could busy
herself with until he left the kitchen.
Mere seconds later, she felt Tragan
come up behind her. Her whole body stilled, as her pulse began to
pound. She could feel how close he was to her. “Andy…” he said
softly, and came even closer. The heat from his body spread across her
back, igniting every nerve ending in her body. “What if that’s not what I
want?” ~
Excerpt 2
“So this is Brad’s study?” Tragan
clarified.
“No, no. It’s run by a doctor he
knows, Dr. Lassiter. Brad has nothing to do with it. Except that he
told me about it and convinced me to do it.” Setting down her sandwich,
Andy spilled out what sounded like a resigned sigh. “Honestly, I’ve been
thinking of telling Brad it’s over.” Immediately, Tragan’s pulse
quickened. Could she really mean…? “You know, with the drug study,”
she clarified.
“Uh, right, the drug study,” he said,
nodding, mentally kicking himself for thinking it could be that easy.
“I just want to forget the whole thing
and get on with my life. Actually, I’m thinking of going back to school
to get a master’s degree.”
“You mean here in Boston?” Tragan
tried to make the question sound casual, tried to cover the dread he felt at
the idea that Andy might be moving away. Before she could respond, the
ear-splitting shrill of the fire alarm shattered the moment.
“Aah!” Andy yelped, throwing her hands
on her ears. “What the hell?”
Tragan waved off her concern.
“Oh, that’s just the fire alarm in the building,” he said. “Don’t worry
about it.”
“Come on,” she said briskly, hopping up
from her chair. “We’d better go.”
“Nah, I never bother going down for
that.”
“What do you mean?” Andy said,
sounding bothered.
“Well, it goes off occasionally,
but it’s always a false alarm. So I usually just ignore it.”
“What! Tragan, that’s
crazy. You can’t just ignore a fire alarm. It could be something!
I’m sorry, but that’s really immature,” she told him, her expression solemn.
“Damn,” he said, feeling mildly
chastised as he stood up. “I’m immature now?”
“No, I mean…I guess that’s harsh,” she
admitted.
“Are you pissed at me over this?” he
said, walking closer to her.
“Of course not. It’s just--”
“What, you’re worried about me?” he
asked with a trace of a grin and stepped even closer, leaving their bodies only
inches apart.
Andy appeared momentarily flustered,
swallowing and sort of flitting her eyes from Tragan’s mouth to his chest to
his shoulder, like she didn’t know where to look. “I’m just saying: what
if I wasn’t here? And there was a fire and something happened to
you? Obviously that’s what I’m getting at.”
“Okay,” he relented. “I’m sorry.
I’ll go.”
“Even if I’m not here?” she pressed.
“Yes. I’ll go,” he
promised.
Which earned him a small, grateful
smile. “All right, come on then...” she said with a quick tug on his arm.
“Hey…” he said, stilling her for a
second then impulsively brushed a lock of hair away from her cheek.
“Nothing’s going to happen to me.”
Andy’s eyes locked with his.
Their gazes held for what felt like a meaningful moment, as her mouth curved
open and she nervously wet her lips...
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